Maturity

Having a great deal of maturity to handle a chronic and intractable illness is a must.  I look at some of those that surround me and just know, that I am way ahead of them in maturity level.  Maybe it's this disease, maybe it's my level of education, my values, the way I was raised. Whatever it is, I just handle things differently.  One example is social media, but that will have to be saved for a post all in itself.   Another example is responding to phone calls and text messages.  I tend to respond within a reasonable amount of time, unless I am in an appointment or sleeping, I usually answer right away.   I have had friends tell me "so sorry, I didn't get your message". Come on now, we don't live in the dinosaur age.  There is a cell tower every so many miles.  Lets get real...the reason you didn't respond is because you didn't want to go to that lunch I invited you to.  Just grow the balls to say "I am sorry, I can't or didn't want to go today", or if you are having a real issue with me, pick up the phone like a real woman would do and call and talk about it.  Quit the passive aggressive BS.  I struggle with loneliness, depression secondary to a medical condition, and chronic pain.  I do not need the immature BS to deal with on top of it,  "I didn't get your message, because we both know better. Be a lady, own up to it, and simply respond within a reasonable amount of time.  Also, don't wait for the time to pass when I invite you somewhere and then passively respond "I am sorry, I just saw your message" You and I both know, your phone doesn't leave your hand...ever.  You got my message in plenty of time to respond.  Just simply say "I am sorry, I can not go today".    Do not beat around the bush, you look like a complete idiot.  I am so much smarter than you must think I am, you are the one looking like the idiot.  I am a 45 year old women with so many more things to be doing with my time than wasting it on people like you.  I am happy to spend the time alone.  Just stop with the excuses.  Grow up.  You have no idea how ridiculous you look.  Socially immature, do you not have the social skills to interact and pick up the phone to politely decline an invite?  Even if you do not feel like being around me, there are polite ways of declining an invite.  Because you are a coward you have to hide behind your phone and state "I didn't get your message"  Is that the best you can come up with? 
I am fairly old school, I typically pick up the phone and call people, maybe because its more personable, I do not make excuses, if I do not want to do something, or can't, I will tell you.  And I will never say "I didnt get your message" you know why?  Because I do not underestimate you, I know you are smarter than that.  Sad thing is, you all must think I am a complete and utter fool, but who is the fool here...you.  I know better.  So please, grow up, act like grown women, stop the passive aggressive BS.  If I message you and ask you if you would like to do something or if you can do something for me, do not wait until after that time passes, cause I am not a fool (you are the fool for playing the game in the first place).  Be a mature lady, with manners, and politely respond within a reasonable amount of time. 
My favorite is when all those people say "Call me if you need something".   So you call or text asking for help for a specific task.  They ignore your call/text.  And the response once again is.. "I didn't get your message.   I have had an incident on a specific day a friend was expecting a call from me as she had offered her assistance.  Now, if you offer assistance to someone, wouldn't you be near your phone that day?  So I called needing assistance, and ring, ring, ring.. no answer.  Pretty shitty if you ask me.  A couple days later "oh sorry I missed your call, I had blah blah blah".  Excuse after excuse.  Don't ever offer someone with chronic illness assistance and not be there for them.  What a deceitful thing to do.  But guess what, I bet you anytime this person calls on me for anything, I am there for them.  You know why?  Maturity.  I just have a different level of maturity.  Is it my education, values, inner strength?  What this ordeal has taught me.   What I know for sure is that if I offered my assistance to someone for the following day, I would #1 most likely check in on them, #2 be waiting for their call.
As I lose my independence and have to depend more on others, how scary is it to have something like this happen?  It just plain sucks.  I do not have too many people I can depend on.  It seems like my friends who are my age and older are the ones I can depend on, which says something about the maturity thing.  The ones that are younger have been the worst when it has come to understanding and even wanting to understand my condition, many have to even reached out to help. Maybe thats because they have never needed help themselves?  I have noticed the ones that do offer help are my more "mature" friends/family that have often had health issues or been in situations where they have needed help and know exactly what to do to make this journey so much easier for me

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